I'm going to post something a little more serious, particularly when you consider my last post, but I just thought I'd share my thoughts, for anyone who'll listen.
I've been told I 'have a type' when it comes to my favorite fictional characters. And since me and my friends discuss this sort of thing maybe a little too much, I was thinking about it as I was doodling one of my newest finds; Scott Summers/Cyclops from X-Men. He falls under the categories my friends have identified: younger, attractive, serious, somewhat broody and a total boy-scout. But I began to wonder why exactly I like him so much. When I first watched Avengers I immediately decided I liked Steve Rogers/Cap America. With Sherlock it was John Watson. With Supernatural I have this odd fondness for both Sam and Cas in a way I don't with Dean. With Teen Titans back in middle school, it was Robin. Heck, Star Wars? Obi-wan. And Leo from TMNT is one I'll never live down. Even with the new book series I've started it's there.
Then I realized the one other similarity: Control. I've always felt this need for control, maybe because I'm a big sister, and here are characters that feel the same even if they don't know it. They all share a need to protect and support those around them; the need to take control and maintain peace. They feel an intense amount of responsibility. Sometimes I feel this overwhelming feeling of helplessness and it makes me sick. I think that the reason I identify with these people is I understand what drives them. That's why even when my friends think they're being pig-headed or just plain stupid, I can see the logic buried underneath.
I wonder how many of those of us who like to occasionally escape into fiction gravitate towards characters that we can relate to without even noticing. Maybe I've been trying to cram in too much Psych homework into one evening but maybe I'm onto something here. Either way, I think I'm going to just enjoy the fact that other people out there get what I'm feeling and keep reading and writing and sharing.
Continue with whatever you're doing and sorry for dumping that on you lot.
Listening to: My Mom play the piano
Reading: Fan Fiction